Heyyy. Dear whoever that is reading this.
Well. It's been a hectic semester for me, where everything come and go so quickly that we don't have the time to actually slow it down and take a break :/ So it actually reach to some extend where I got really sad and emotional in the way that I have to do this, I have to do that yet I don't have enough time? I turned down friend's invitation for dinner, I said no to family precious bonding time. I mean I was thinking what was actually happening to me. I was sad, unhappy, depressed, uncertain of why and what for i'm doing this? Is it gonna guarantee me a great future for just studying hard and not enjoying life and bring myself to the limit where I want to give up living like this.
However, things slightly changed today.
I met up with him, one of the person that used to mean the whole world to me. A guy that I really depend on and I can fully trust him with my whole life.
It's been a really really long time since we last talk like this? And it turned out that he is still so rational, he can still teach me so many stuff and give me advice and let me grow.
He said why make your life so difficult? It's once in a lifetime thing and why are you making yourself suffer? I mean you have to work hard but what happens when you try so hard that you are missing so many other great things in your life?
So it occurred to me that I was wrong, and I strongly appreciate that he told me that :) Thank you.
Lyn.